My Dearest Niki

As I write this blog today it has been a little over a week since my dearest sweetest Niki has passed. She was the light of my life and I loved her more than life itself. She was there to greet me everyday when I came home from work and was there every morning before I even woke up. She was my best friend and has been there for me when no others could.

She lost her battle with seizures. We helped her with these as much as we could and she finally couldn't fight it anymore. They got the best of her and they did alot of damage. The brain damage was so bad that she wasn't herself anymore. She couldn't see or walk. Poor Rex wanted her so badly to see him she just couldn't. I cried that Tuesday and Wednesday. I was not ready to let her go. But just as I wasn't ready to let go she was ready to let go of the battle she had fought for so long.

She was the best thing that had ever happened to us. She made the house fill full when it was empty and gave Rex the best friend he never had.

Funny story about her, we got her because Collin really wanted her and wanted a big dog and was hell bent on have a shepherd. I just went along with it and was like ok, hopefully she won't eat my baby Rex. We rescued her from people who didn't love her. We have her shelter, food and love. And wouldn't you know, she became my dog! She was mine and we laugh about it to this day. I was the one who showed her what real love was when there wasn't anyone around.

She has been laid to rest and is now rest in the living room watching over us and protecting us. Collin swears he heard someone creepy around the other night at 2:30am but I really think it was niki wondering around making sure we were ok and protecting us. I know that sounds crazy but I really think she is. I do find comfort knowing she is at home with me now and knowing that one day we will all meet again at the rainbow bridge. I hope she is healthy and running free and making new friends in heaven.

Here's to you Niki, the best dog that has ever entered our lives! We love and miss you and will never forget you miss beautiful!

Just happenings...

So I don't get alot of things going on right now. Maybe I'm not suppose to. Maybe it is my time to sit back, shut up and just lay low and that is what I'm doing now.

Seems there are some hawk eyes watching my facebook these days. If people actually believe anything on there is true for one minute, then you need to check yourself before you wreck yourself. So I've started cleaning house on facebook, really setting privacy settings and deleting those hawk eyes that are bothering me so much. I do facebook for fun and once the fun is taken out of it, well I'm done with it.

I'm trying to get back to the fun things in life. Trying out new fitness classes. Trying to get back in better shape and just lose some pounds. As much as it is killing me, it is good for me.

Ok, here is to hoping and praying that other things in my life start improving and things start moving in a more positive direction.

No desire...at least right now

I just have no desire to do a triathlon. Over the last month I've said I would enter Galveston Half Ironman and as the new year rolls around and I have to face getting on the bike and doing spin class in the evenings, I'm really not liking it all that much.

I kinda feel that I'm almost done with triathlons. I want to ride my bike, but I want to do it outdoors and the weather right now is not allowing me to do that.

If I do a tri, I just want to to keep it short and simple. I want to have something to train for but nothing long.

I really enjoy my life right now of going home and doing P90x or running a few miles in the hood and that is about it.

Lets see what 2011 will bring.....

Wow...2010 was a was a great year. Of course, just like everything else it had its ups and downs, but overall it was a great year. Collin and I made new friends, caught up with old friends, found out that we love "camping" on the Frio and that I don't have to train for a triathlon or be a part of a group do exercise all the time.

So now that 2011 has started I'm going to see if I can better a few things in my life. I need to eat better a few times a week. I'm always complaining about my weight...well I need to drink less vodka and eat less burgers and fries and eat more fruits and veggies. This mean that Collin and I will have to cook more at home. But I'm going to make an attempt at this a few times a week and on the weekends.

Encourage Collin more to workout. He complains just like I do about weight, being out of shape and whatever else, so I'm going to start encouraging him to workout out with me. Doing the workouts together will also help both of us.

I've already signed up for a few events just so I will somewhat train. I'm doing the Tough Mudder on January 29th. 10 miles, 16 obstacles, I think I can manage this. On February 20th I'm doing a half marathon. Even if I have to walk part of it, I'm doing it. It is about having fun and doing my first half marathon that isn't tied to a swim and a bike before hand. On April 10th I'm saying I'm doing Herman Memorial Half Ironman. I haven't signed up, don't know why maybe I'm trying to fight that inner demon that says why do this when you don't have to and fighting the other one saying go ahead you will already be trained for the running portion.

I'm hoping we will get to make it to San Francisco in May for Bay to Breakers. With the way gas prices and airline tickets are going up, who knows if we will be able to.

For now, these are just some of the things that I have in mind for 2011. I'm not making them a resolution, goals, or whatever they are suppose to be, but something I'm just hoping I can do and if not, well I did my best and I have to forget the rest.